I took a break... now im back

Was a little upset to find out I had a BFN took a little while to get over it.. esp when I thought that the cramping pain could have been implantation... oh the well!!
But it did take me a little longer to get back b/c I was just tired of this whole TTC thing for a while..It really takes a lot out of you! GEEZ! mentally, physically and emotinally.. Good thing that I did prepare myself for the BFN before I went in b/c I would of been a serious mess then!

So next things in effect.. met w/ my RE and he wants me to up my metformin to 2 500mg /day.. so basically 1000mg /day and also my clomid is not doubled dosages.. which is funny b/c I have not taken even the reg dosage as yet! .. Im not complaining though b/c at least ists a leap forward.. so im happy about that.. hopefully i'll have my twins! lol!!!! my boy and girl at the same time!!! YAY!! :P
But the Lord knows that I will be happy with just one too! I really hope that this is the cycle.. as I do with every other one that I have had.. but this one for sure.. b/c if not then ill be taking possibly a couple of months off due to the amount of money that is being eaten up by these $30 copays and medicine and shots that are out of pocket! Its VERY expensive and we havent even talked about an IUI or IVF!!! and my insurance doesnt cover this so thats going to be crazy if we have to go there.. but prayerfully we wont have to.

I have to meet w/ this weight management at my RE's thats recommended to all PCOS patients who are overweight.. but I am not trying to spend $50 to have someone tell me what to eat and to workout! lol! i know i have to work out.. im actually going to start working out on my mom's treadmill that she let me borrow last night.. and that another $50 that I do not have! LOL!
So ill be possibly cancelling that appt.. esp since I wont have the money for it .. this will be my second time cancelling b/c I just dont have the money for it! GEEZ! my RE really wants me to meet w/ her too.. but I feel bad b/c of the money and I REALLY dont have it like that..