I took a break... now im back

Was a little upset to find out I had a BFN took a little while to get over it.. esp when I thought that the cramping pain could have been implantation... oh the well!!
But it did take me a little longer to get back b/c I was just tired of this whole TTC thing for a while..It really takes a lot out of you! GEEZ! mentally, physically and emotinally.. Good thing that I did prepare myself for the BFN before I went in b/c I would of been a serious mess then!

So next things in effect.. met w/ my RE and he wants me to up my metformin to 2 500mg /day.. so basically 1000mg /day and also my clomid is not doubled dosages.. which is funny b/c I have not taken even the reg dosage as yet! .. Im not complaining though b/c at least ists a leap forward.. so im happy about that.. hopefully i'll have my twins! lol!!!! my boy and girl at the same time!!! YAY!! :P
But the Lord knows that I will be happy with just one too! I really hope that this is the cycle.. as I do with every other one that I have had.. but this one for sure.. b/c if not then ill be taking possibly a couple of months off due to the amount of money that is being eaten up by these $30 copays and medicine and shots that are out of pocket! Its VERY expensive and we havent even talked about an IUI or IVF!!! and my insurance doesnt cover this so thats going to be crazy if we have to go there.. but prayerfully we wont have to.

I have to meet w/ this weight management at my RE's thats recommended to all PCOS patients who are overweight.. but I am not trying to spend $50 to have someone tell me what to eat and to workout! lol! i know i have to work out.. im actually going to start working out on my mom's treadmill that she let me borrow last night.. and that another $50 that I do not have! LOL!
So ill be possibly cancelling that appt.. esp since I wont have the money for it .. this will be my second time cancelling b/c I just dont have the money for it! GEEZ! my RE really wants me to meet w/ her too.. but I feel bad b/c of the money and I REALLY dont have it like that..

Heeeelllo All! :D

Yes I AM quite chipper today... even though I have returned from work from my fabulous getaway vacation I am in good spirits. Well the trip was wonderful, it was very spiritual and uplifting and RELAXING!!! I didn't get my AF the whole time I was there but it didn't stress me out. I just enjoyed the time I had and went swimming and chilled out.
So let me get right to it.. I called my RE and told them that I haven't gotten my AF as yet and its been well over a month.. They rushed me in this morning to see me and got blood work done also and ultrasound and finally had a semi consult with my DR. Turns out I am not ovulating at all (which I already figured out) and have officially been diagnosed with PCOS. SoooOOooo the magical words of medication came across and guess what!!! I will be starting Clomid soon!!!! WOOHOO!!!! RING THE ALARMS!!! this is def. an exciting moment for me b/c I have been talking about this drug for about a year now! haha!!! My RE is going to start me on Provera to get my AF started and also I'm going to start with Metformin then on like the 3rd day of my AF I will be starting on clomid!! YAY MEEEE!!! I'm getting closer and closer to my blessing!!!!!!!

Side bar... while we were away on vaca we stopped @ a mall I LOVE going into motherhood... looked at a couple clothes and I was going to buy a dress there.. but didn't.. I like it b/c it gives me some hope of what is to come.. but I am loving the fact that I had some good news at my appointment today. I truly thank God about this appointment, and knowing that He can fix any situation makes me have some type of sanity! I am SOOOO excited yall!!! :D

I may be posting pics of baby stuff that I would want... just for the fun of it... I love looking at babies r us!! (snicker)